In the Global Abundance Alliance we are presenting a day-long workshop on May 23rd, designed for shifting our personal stories from separateness to interconnectedness. Since whatever we may theoretically believe, this shift is highly foreign to most of us, I will be working on myself every day and blogging about it here in preparation for having that day be as effective as possible. A lot of things are supposed to be gifts, but I don't want them, or even, I am suspicious of the offering.
When I tried to read the first of the preparatory readings suggested for us by Dr. Aumatma Shah, I struggled with it.What is he talking about, "rituals for lover earth"? Who is this person? (Charles Eisenstein) This is way too weird. It is suspicious, even. What good is it if "ordinary people" can't get it? This is for a special subsegment of the population....the woo woo crowd. As I write, my houseful of engineering men is discussing motors. I can deal with motors.
And yet, today I am rereading it: finding it easy, interesting, intriguing....He says, "Wanting to believe something based on sentiments about respecting traditions or restoring connection to earth or spirit is not the same as actually believing something. Beliefs are not mere vapors in the head, but reveal themselves as actions."Hmm, pretty straight.
So one freely given gift I can see already is to speak freely, truly, lovingly. That often seems to me like "the forbidden path"! I entertain my voluptuous love of the world in private, in case somebody will disapprove!
I hesitate to talk to my neighbor at all, because I "know" her religious posture, and I disapprove of it....so I am at work on seeking out my own "disapprovals "....There must be a way to be in the world with one's opinions, yet not quite so suppressed by them? I doubt I will ever entirely without opinions- they spring up like wild onions. But maybe I can take them less seriously.
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